I'm with you here.
I used to enjoy speed. I loved the wind whistling loudly past my ears, and my skill at avoiding "moving gates." I'm a woman, but still I liked zooming at warp speed down groomers, weaving in and out of slower skiers. My ski club encourged this behavior.
Oh the shame.... I can tell stories of my near misses, but won't. It's embarrassing. I grew out of it before doing real damage to myself or others, thank goodness. I have no excuse for that behavior. Late bloomer.
I now love slow, super slow, precise, round turns. There are so many variations on how to start and end those turns, and exploring how to make all those happen is a challenge, especially on New England ice. When the skis grip the whole way around, it feels super good, and you know your balance is on pointe. Varying the radius, varying the grippage, varying the degree of completion, varying the edge angles, varying the tempo ... is fun, challenging, and pretty safe if the turns don't go all the way across the hill on a crowded day. Going slow offers safety for the skier in question, and safety for moving obstacles ahead.
This doesn't mean I don't enjoy letting it rip when the trail is empty in front of me. But usually it isn't.
Sensations .... control .... versatility .... it's all good.
And then there are the bumps..... paradise! No worries about getting hit, or hitting someone.